the moment.

i guess i now understand what G told me before,

about the change brought by studying abroad n so.

i passed these 2 months in fear n frustration,

afraid of tht i'd screw my life up like i'm already heading to.

pathetic yet true. it's almost too pessimistic to admit.

it's the trick of expectation.

not that they're not good  enough,

it's me who expects too much from them.

like you, has always been there for me;

n time also does its magic which strengthens our frdship

there's nth i'd hide from you,

you always hv my trust n faith n love.

i needa stop the fear.

it's pushing me away from my life.

'i m not that generous in frdship. some ppl just dont worth ours.'

so true J, can't wind up brokenhearted, again.

perhaps it's too much for them,

but i expect so much more from you guys.<3

We must dare, and dare again, and go on daring.

Incest couple to leave home after attack

A father and daughter in an incestuous relationship plan to move from their rural South Australian home because of a vandal attack.

John Earnest Deaves, 61, and his oldest daughter Jennifer, 39, have admitted having two children together, with one dying shortly after birth.

In March this year, the couple were placed on three-year good behaviour bonds after pleading guilty in the Mt Gambier District Court in SA's south-east to two counts of incest related to the sex that led to the births of their two daughters.

Their first baby was born in 2001 but died a few days later due to a congenital heart disease. Their second daughter was born in May last year.

The pair went public last Sunday on the Nine Network's 60 Minutes program.

On Friday, Ms Deaves released a statement on the show's website describing the last week as "unbelievable, hectic and stressful".

"But we have no regrets about going public," Ms Deaves said.

"Public reaction has been varied.

"We have had support and, of course, we've had the expected negativity.

"We wanted to open some eyes and make people realise that genetic sexual attraction is out there and it's happening, and we feel we have achieved that."

Ms Deaves said they planned to leave their current home city.

"We do plan to move on from Mount Gambier, not because we are trying to hide from anyone or anything but because of the fact our car was vandalised," she said.

"People obviously know where we live and they could do this sort of thing again - hopefully not again, but you never know."

Ms Deaves said she wanted to clarify the death of their first child, Jackson, was from a congenital heart defect.

"Jackson's death has absolutely nothing to do with the fact that John and I are related," she said.

Ms Deaves said they were abiding by the court ruling, which stipulated they should not have further sexual intercourse.

She said they went public with their relationship "in order to bring awareness within society of genetic sexual attraction".

"We are currently planning a genetic sexual attraction foundation in order to promote research on GSA and to offer support to those that experience GSA," she said.

Police are investigating an alleged payment by the Nine Network to the Deaves.

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..............

dun really think it's a worthy cause for setting up a fund, at all.

are we now living in a grey world without clear black and white?

perhaps..

i should just get used to finding more ridiculosity day by day.

a little piece of us.

out of any expetation,

i actually found this at st kilda beach.

if only i got my 24 McDonalds buddies here...

tonight i finally know that

i really can trust u guys.

may the frdship last,

so as the fun n harmony.

a very significant nite.

n i love the breakfast:)

love u.

many times that i wanna give up

i wanna go home right-a-way

i think of u,

my loving and caring and worrisome mom and dad,

my supportive and humorous and close-to-my-heart dearly friends,

my many-times-i-missed chance and wasted time,

i can't let u down

i don't want to let u down.

then...

all i have to do is holding on,

and hold on, and on and on.

a BIG thank you to u all.

esp the two who ate up the whole crazy meal i prepared.

love u and miss u.

starts with goodbye